Ponder with Pamela

Tag: #WorkingWithChronicIllness

  • Tai Chi and Remote Work: Finding Balance in Rainy Weather

    Tai Chi and Remote Work: Finding Balance in Rainy Weather

    June 14, 2025

    Sometimes a good day doesn’t mean everything goes perfectly; it just means you show up anyway.

    Today was one of those rainy days that seems to settle into your bones, and my knees definitely felt it. That familiar ache that reminds you your body has its own weather system. But I still rolled through my morning routine, and when it came time for exercise, I chose Tai Chi instead of my usual workout.

    There’s something about Tai Chi on days when your joints are protesting. Those slow, flowing movements that work with your body instead of demanding things from it. It felt like exactly what I needed.

    I managed a full day of work for RWS, and even had an afternoon meeting. It’s such a gift to work for a company that actually gets remote work. They provide so much helpful information and support for their remote employees. Not everyone understands that working from home doesn’t mean working in isolation, especially when you’re managing health stuff alongside everything else.

    Days like today remind me that “good” doesn’t have to mean pain-free or perfect. Sometimes it just means adapting, showing up, and appreciating the support systems that make it all possible.

    The rain is still coming down, but I’m calling today a win. 💜

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Managing ADHD and Chronic Illness: My Journey to Better Mornings

    Managing ADHD and Chronic Illness: My Journey to Better Mornings

    June 9, 2025

    Today was another genuinely good day, despite the rainy weather that usually brings challenges. But here’s the amazing thing: I’ve started noticing that when I wake up, I’m not nearly as stiff and sore as I used to be. I honestly can’t even begin to tell you what a relief that is!

    The Gift of Better Mornings

    Starting your day feeling miserable makes everything that follows so much more difficult. When you wake up already fighting pain and stiffness, it’s like beginning each day from behind. But lately, I’m waking up feeling more like a normal human being, and it’s transforming everything.

    This change has to be connected to the consistent gentle exercise routine I’ve been maintaining. A week and a half of daily 10-minute sessions of Qi Gong, yoga, Tai Chi, and strength training, and my body is already responding with less morning stiffness. That’s incredible progress! I would never have thought that such a minor thing could make such a major improvement!

    Morning Routine Mastery

    I completed my full morning routine and got my Qi Gong session done, and even managed to meditate for 10 minutes afterward. For someone with ADHD, sitting still and concentrating solely on breathing is genuinely challenging because my mind wants to race off in a million different directions at once.

    But I’m learning that meditation doesn’t have to be perfect. Even when my thoughts are bouncing around, the attempt to focus and breathe mindfully seems to have value. It’s about practice, not perfection.

    Professional Progress

    I got all my email sorted and started my onboarding process at RWS! It feels so good to be moving forward professionally while also taking care of my health. The combination of feeling physically better and having new opportunities creates this upward momentum that’s been missing for so long.

    Having sustainable morning routines in place makes handling new work responsibilities feel much more manageable. I’m starting from a place of strength rather than trying to catch up from exhaustion.

    Productive Energy

    I even managed to complete three loads of laundry between everything else today. For anyone managing chronic illness, you know that’s not a small accomplishment. It’s running up and down stairs to wash, dry, fold, AND put away multiple loads while handling other responsibilities.

    I’m feeling genuinely productive today, and it’s the good kind of productivity. Energizing rather than depleting. When your body feels better, everything else becomes more possible.

    The ADHD and Chronic Illness Intersection

    Managing both ADHD and chronic illness creates unique challenges. The hyperactive mind that wants to do everything at once, combined with a body that has limited energy reserves, requires careful balance and realistic expectations.

    But I’m finding that gentle, consistent routines actually help both conditions. The physical movement supports my chronic illness management, while the structured routine helps my ADHD brain stay focused and organized.

    Hope for More Days Like This

    I’m feeling incredibly hopeful about having many more days like this one. The combination of reduced morning stiffness, successful meditation despite ADHD challenges, professional progress, and sustained energy throughout the day feels like a new normal I could actually maintain.

    The best part is knowing that these improvements are coming from sustainable changes. Gentle exercise, consistent routines, and realistic expectations, rather than pushing myself beyond my limits.

    Here’s to waking up feeling human and building on this momentum! 💜

    Sometimes the biggest victories are the ones that happen before you even get out of bed. Waking up without that familiar morning battle against your own body.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Building Resilience: Exercise and Routine in Pain

    Building Resilience: Exercise and Routine in Pain

    June 5, 2025

    Rain and clouds brought some familiar pain along with them today, just as predicted. It’s remarkable how accurately my body can forecast weather changes – sometimes I feel like a human barometer when those pressure drops hit.

    Persistence Despite the Weather

    Even though I was definitely feeling the weather shift with increased pain and fatigue, I still got up and completed my daily routine and strength training this morning. That felt like a real victory, especially knowing how easy it would have been to skip it when my body was already protesting.

    Four days into this exercise routine and I’m learning that consistency matters even more on the difficult days. Maybe especially on the difficult days. The movement didn’t magically erase the weather-related symptoms, but it did provide some counterbalance to the stiffness and discomfort.

    Professional Development on a Pain Day

    The rest of my day was spent working on testing and qualifications for various job positions. Trying to focus and perform well on assessments when you’re dealing with increased pain and brain fog adds an extra layer of challenge to an already stressful process.

    But I pushed through and completed what I needed to do. Sometimes that’s what chronic illness management looks like. Showing up and doing what needs to be done even when your body isn’t cooperating fully.

    The Weather Reality Check

    This wasn’t a bad day, but it definitely wasn’t as good as the amazing few days I’ve had recently. The contrast is striking. Just yesterday, I was walking three blocks and feeling energized, and today the simple act of concentrating on work tasks felt more challenging.

    I definitely felt the change in weather with that familiar combination of minor pain increases and subtle fatigue. It’s a reminder that progress with chronic illness isn’t always linear, and external factors like weather will always be part of the equation.

    Building Resilience Through Routine

    What I’m proud of is that even on a weather-affected day, I maintained my new routines. The exercise happened. The work got done. I adapted to how I was feeling without abandoning my commitments to myself.

    This is exactly why building sustainable habits matters, because they carry you through the harder days when motivation alone wouldn’t be enough.

    Tomorrow’s Forecast

    The weather is supposed to continue being stormy through Monday, so I’m mentally preparing for some more challenging days. But I’m also feeling confident that I have tools now. The exercise routine, better planning, and realistic expectations. With these tools I will navigate weather-related flares more successfully.

    Here’s to maintaining momentum even when the skies are gray. 💜

    Progress isn’t measured only on the good days – sometimes it’s most evident in how you show up when conditions aren’t ideal.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • How I’m Rebuilding After Being Ghosted by My Remote Job

    How I’m Rebuilding After Being Ghosted by My Remote Job

    Ponderings from May 8, 2025

    This has been a really stressful week for me, and I’ve had to hit pause more than once. I’m working full-time from home now because my day job was suddenly phased out, with no warning.

    I was already doing part-time work remotely, but earlier this week, while trying to submit my work, my screen suddenly blanked out. Just like that, I couldn’t access anything. I’ve earned no income this week and honestly, it’s been depressing.

    To top it off, I haven’t heard a word from the company. No explanation, no goodbye, just silence. I’ve officially been ghosted by a job I was working nearly 60 hours a week for. It’s frustrating and unprofessional, and it stings more than I expected.

    I’ve spent a lot of time sleeping this week. As someone living with multiple chronic illnesses, that kind of shutdown makes everything harder, physically and mentally.

    Still, I’ve been pushing forward, filling out job applications every day. I finally heard back from one company today, and I’m going through their training program now. So fingers crossed, I’m hopeful this might be a fresh start.

    What’s gotten me through? My family (including my two fur babies) and music, especially Jelly Roll. His song “I Am Not Okay” was my anthem this week. His lyrics hit so differently when you’re going through it.

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    Thanks for being here and following along. This space helps me process, reflect, and connect.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜