May 20, 2025
The rain came and went and so did my energy. I was in a lot of pain and barely slept last night, so productivity took a backseat.
I managed to submit a few job applications. The rest of the day was all about Netflix, rest, and cuddles with my daughter and our pups.
Sometimes, that’s enough. 💙
Here’s to giving ourselves grace when our bodies say slow down.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
May 19, 2025
There are days I miss parts of my old job at Electripack. I miss the routine, the familiarity, and all of the people. However, the truth is that working from home has been one of the best things I’ve done for my health.
When you live with chronic illnesses, traditional jobs don’t always fit. Pushing through pain, hiding fatigue, and pretending you’re okay when you’re not takes a toll. Now, I can rest when I need to. Work when I feel my best, and give myself grace on the harder days.
This flexibility has allowed me to do more than just work. It’s also helped me grow. I’ve started a blog, I’m writing a book, and even enrolled in digital marketing training. I’m still hustling, but it’s on my terms now. And that freedom? That’s everything.
If you’re navigating work and chronic illness, I see you. And there are options out there that support you instead of draining you.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
May 16, 2025
Today was an okay day. I was in a lot of pain, and it was hard to get much done today. I did get the second exam for my job done, and started working on the third one. I just couldn’t concentrate, so I’ll get it done tomorrow.
I honestly can’t wait to get to bed and try my new pillows out. Fingers-crossed that they help with my neck and shoulder pain. It was excruciating today. Wound up with a headache too.
I would write more, but I just don’t have it in me. Have a great night everybody, and enjoy your Saturday. I’ll be back tomorrow evening.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
May 13, 2025
Today was a pretty good day. My daughter and I binge-watched Orange is the New Black and just relaxed. I got some extra cuddles from my fur babies too, which is always a bonus.
I did finally receive the General Guidelines file I’d been waiting for, later in the day, of course. By that point, I decided to wait until tomorrow to really start digging into it. There’s a lot to go over, and I want to be fully focused.
Plus, I was just enjoying the time with all of my kids. I don’t feel like I’ve had much of that lately. I was working almost 60 hours a week at my previous job, plus working on my book and working on my blog. It an all be a lot at times, but I enjoy it.
I’m genuinely excited to get through this final exam and finally get back to work. I have a good feeling about this job. It already feels like I’ll have way more support than I had at my last one.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
May 11, 2025
Today was all about relaxing after a busy and emotionally draining week. I spent time watching our favorite shows with my daughter and cuddling with my fur babies.
🐾 This is Diesel, but we call him Deezy. He’s part Lab and part Pitt, and he’s my old man. I’ve had him since he was 9 months old, and he just turned 13. These days, he spends most of his time sleeping and has trouble with stairs, but he still manages to play with his little sister Zoey.
🐾 And this is Zoey. She’s mostly pittie. We adopted her when she was about 9 months old, too, and she’s almost 4 now. Zoey is pure joy and absolutely loves her cuddles. When we first brought her home, she needed to sleep under a blanket and pressed up against one of us, either me, my husband, or our daughter. She still likes to sleep under a blanket at night, but during the day she’ll nap just about anywhere.
As you can see, they took full advantage of “Sleepy Sunday.” 💤 Around here, that means naps and rest, not just to recover from the past week, but to recharge for the one ahead.
I hope you’ve had a chance to recharge today too.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
May 10, 2025
Today felt… surprisingly okay. Maybe even good-ish.
I went grocery shopping with my husband this morning. Something I used to do all the time, but now it’s draining in a way that’s hard to explain. But I felt decent when I woke up, so I went. And I’m glad I did.
And then… I passed the test.
The one that knocked me down yesterday? I passed it today! With just one question missed. And I made sure to use that review screen before submitting this time. Lesson learned.
So yeah, today wasn’t perfect. But it was full of little victories. And honestly, I’ll take that.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
May 9, 2025
Today was frustrating.
I’m in the middle of training for a new company I’d really like to work for. There are four training modules, each with a quiz, and after that, I get two detailed manuals to study before I take a final test and (hopefully) start working on projects.
I passed the first two quizzes, but honestly? I thought I would do better. This company is a lot more detail-oriented than I’m used to.
So when I got to the third module, I slowed down. I took notes. I double-checked everything. I even did great on the two practice questions.
When I went to take the quiz, I felt confident! I thought I nailed it. But then? I didn’t pass.
When I looked at the results, I was stunned. I could’ve sworn I clicked the correct answers. My notes matched. My understanding was solid. And yet… There it was. Wrong.
I’m disappointed in myself — even though logically, I know I shouldn’t be. I knew the answers. I just don’t know what went wrong. I’ll probably try again tomorrow, but today? I’m letting myself feel it.
Sometimes it’s not about failing. It’s about feeling like you did everything right and still didn’t get the result you deserved.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
Hey there – and welcome!
I’m so glad you found your way to Ponder with Pamela. This little corner of the internet is my space to share daily thoughts, random musings, and whatever else is bouncing around in my brain. Some days it might be something lighthearted, like a funny memory or a quote that stuck with me. Other days it might be something a little deeper.
I’ve always believed that reflection doesn’t have to be heavy or poetic — sometimes it’s just about pausing long enough to say, “Huh… that’s interesting.” That’s the energy I’m bringing here.
But this isn’t just a diary.
You’ll also find my favorite Amazon finds — things I actually use and love, especially products that make life a little easier, cozier, or more fun. Whether it’s a wellness item, something quirky I couldn’t resist, or a tool that helps me manage my day, I’ll share it all right here.
So grab a drink, get comfy, and hang out with me. Let’s ponder life together — one thought (and one Amazon find) at a time.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
Ponderings from May 8, 2025
This has been a really stressful week for me, and I’ve had to hit pause more than once. I’m working full-time from home now because my day job was suddenly phased out, with no warning.
I was already doing part-time work remotely, but earlier this week, while trying to submit my work, my screen suddenly blanked out. Just like that, I couldn’t access anything. I’ve earned no income this week and honestly, it’s been depressing.
To top it off, I haven’t heard a word from the company. No explanation, no goodbye, just silence. I’ve officially been ghosted by a job I was working nearly 60 hours a week for. It’s frustrating and unprofessional, and it stings more than I expected.
I’ve spent a lot of time sleeping this week. As someone living with multiple chronic illnesses, that kind of shutdown makes everything harder, physically and mentally.
Still, I’ve been pushing forward, filling out job applications every day. I finally heard back from one company today, and I’m going through their training program now. So fingers crossed, I’m hopeful this might be a fresh start.
What’s gotten me through? My family (including my two fur babies) and music, especially Jelly Roll. His song “I Am Not Okay” was my anthem this week. His lyrics hit so differently when you’re going through it.
On a lighter note, I’m also an Amazon Affiliate, and I’ll be sharing products I personally use and recommend. I’ll add new finds as I order them, and once I’ve used them for a week or two, I’ll post honest reviews right here. If you see a product listed without a review yet, it’s something I’m currently trying out!
Thanks for being here and following along. This space helps me process, reflect, and connect.
The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜
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