Ponder with Pamela

Tag: Pamela’s journey

  • Hurting, But Hanging In

    Hurting, But Hanging In

    May 16, 2025

    Today was an okay day. I was in a lot of pain, and it was hard to get much done today. I did get the second exam for my job done, and started working on the third one. I just couldn’t concentrate, so I’ll get it done tomorrow. 

    I honestly can’t wait to get to bed and try my new pillows out. Fingers-crossed that they help with my neck and shoulder pain. It was excruciating today. Wound up with a headache too. 

    I would write more, but I just don’t have it in me. Have a great night everybody, and enjoy your Saturday. I’ll be back tomorrow evening. 

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • This Life Is Still Mine

    This Life Is Still Mine

    May 15, 2025

    I planned on completing the entire final exam today for my job. It’s split into three parts, but I only finished Part 1. The next section didn’t show up yet, so I pivoted and spent time working on my memoir instead.

    I actually got a lot accomplished in that regard. I cried a little while writing. I had stopped for a few days because the emotional weight of it all was just too much. Sometimes remembering the pain we’ve been through brings that past pain right back into the present.

    Even though I’m much happier now, those memories can still sting. I’ve been especially focused on enjoying every moment I have left with Deezy. I want to make the most of the time we still have together.

    Watching Orange is the New Black recently has shifted my perspective, too. It reminded me how precious our time is and how even the hard, messy days are still our days. Life may not turn out the way we imagined, but it’s still ours. We still get to choose what we do with it.

    And for that, I’m thankful.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Rules, Readiness, and the Road Ahead

    Rules, Readiness, and the Road Ahead

    May 14, 2025

    Today was productive. I managed to get through a good part of the guidelines my new job sent me. These guidelines are very in-depth, and honestly, I like that. I’d rather have too many rules than not enough and be left wondering what I should do.

    I’ll finish reviewing everything tomorrow and start the first (of three) exams. Fingers crossed that I pass them all. I’m so ready to start working again and earning that money. I’ve got bills to pay.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜