Ponder with Pamela

Tag: chronic illness life

  • How Weather Affects Chronic Conditions

    How Weather Affects Chronic Conditions

    May 31, 2025

    Today was one of those days that reminded me just how much weather affects everything when you’re living with chronic conditions. The sun finally came out and it almost made it up to 70 degrees – what a difference that made!

    Career Development on a Good Day

    I spent a good portion of the day working on certifications through OneForma so I can get back to work. There’s something hopeful about investing time in professional development, especially when you’re navigating the job market with chronic illness considerations. Every certification feels like another tool in the toolkit, another way to show potential employers your value and capabilities.

    It felt good to focus on something forward-looking and productive, particularly with the mental clarity that seems to come with better weather days.

    The Laundry Victory

    The real victory of the day? I managed to do three full loads of laundry AND actually got it all put away! Anyone with chronic illness knows this is no small feat. Laundry has this sneaky way of becoming an overwhelming multi-day project when energy is limited.

    But feeling better with the change in weather gave me just enough sustained energy to tackle the whole process from start to finish. There’s something deeply satisfying about conquering a household task completely rather than having it hang over you in various stages of completion.

    Signs of Spring Joy

    The ice cream trucks were even out and about today! There’s something so cheerful about hearing those familiar melodies drifting through the neighborhood. It’s one of those simple sounds that signals warmer weather and better days ahead.

    After so many gray, cool days, these little signs of seasonal normalcy feel extra special.

    Balancing Productivity and Rest

    Even with all that energy, I made sure to include some downtime – coloring while watching TV. It’s become such an important part of my routine, providing that perfect blend of gentle creativity and relaxation that works even when I’m tired.

    The key is learning to ride the wave of good energy days without completely depleting tomorrow’s reserves. Today felt like I found that sweet spot – productive but sustainable.

    Weather as Medicine

    It’s amazing how much difference sunshine and warmer temperatures can make when you’re dealing with chronic conditions. The improved mood, increased energy, and reduced pain levels all seemed to align today. It’s like the weather itself became medicine.

    Days like today remind me why it’s so important to maximize the good moments when they come, while also being gentle with myself when the gray days return.

    Here’s hoping this is the start of more consistent spring weather – my body and spirit are definitely ready for it! 💜

    Sometimes the best therapy is sunshine, productivity that feels manageable, and the simple joy of ice cream truck melodies in the distance.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Coping with SAD: Finding Joy on Gloomy Days

    Coping with SAD: Finding Joy on Gloomy Days

    May 30, 2025

    Today was another cool and rainy day here in Ohio. I honestly can’t believe we’re getting this much rain, and the temperatures are staying so much cooler than normal. I’m definitely ready to see more of the sun. My body and soul are both craving it.

    Late May SAD

    It’s the end of May and I’m still suffering from Seasonal Affective Disorder… how sad is that? (Pun intended, because sometimes you have to laugh about these things.) Most people expect SAD to be a winter problem, but when spring refuses to actually spring and you’re dealing with weeks of gray skies and rain, that seasonal depression can linger much longer than anyone anticipates.

    The lack of consistent sunshine really affects everything when you’re already managing chronic conditions. The gray days seem to amplify fatigue, worsen pain levels, and make everything feel just a little bit harder than it should be.

    Productivity Despite the Gray

    Despite the dreary weather, I did manage to get more designs completed for my RedBubble store. There’s something satisfying about creating colorful, hopeful graphics when the world outside your window is anything but colorful. It’s like injecting a little brightness into the day through creativity.

    Each new design feels like a small act of rebellion against the gloom. I’m taking difficult experiences and transforming them into something beautiful and meaningful that might help someone else.

    Choosing Simple Pleasures

    At some point today, I made the conscious decision to just put everything aside and watch TV with my daughter. I spent time coloring, which has become one of my favorite low-energy activities.

    I have both physical coloring books with markers and a coloring app on my tablet that I absolutely love, especially when I’m resting in bed. All I need is my tablet and stylus, and I can create something beautiful without having to sit up or expend much physical energy.

    The Therapy of Coloring

    There’s something incredibly therapeutic about coloring, whether it’s with traditional materials or digitally. It’s meditative, creative, and accomplishable even on low-energy days. The repetitive motions, the focus on staying within lines, and the satisfaction of watching something come to life with color. It’s perfect for chronic illness management.

    Finding Light in Gray Days

    While I’m definitely ready for more sunshine and warmer weather, today reminded me that comfort and creativity can happen regardless of what’s going on outside. Sometimes the best thing you can do on a gray day is embrace the cozy, find simple pleasures, and create your own little pockets of color and joy.

    Here’s hoping tomorrow brings at least a little more light, but if not, I know we’ll find ways to make our own. 💜

    When the weather won’t cooperate with your need for sunshine, sometimes you have to create your own brightness through small, colorful moments.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Finding Joy in Simple Errands and Good Weather

    Finding Joy in Simple Errands and Good Weather

    May 29, 2025

    Today was a pretty good day, made even better by the sunshine making a rare appearance here in Ohio. There’s something about natural light that just lifts the spirit, especially when you’re dealing with chronic conditions that seem to worsen on those gray, dreary days we’ve been having.

    Quality Time and Errands

    My daughter and I managed to run a few errands together today. It might sound simple, but when you’re managing chronic illness, being able to get out of the house, accomplish necessary tasks, AND spend quality time with your favorite person feels like winning the lottery.

    There’s something special about those mother-daughter errand runs. She’s not just my daughter, she’s genuinely my best friend, and having her company makes even mundane tasks feel meaningful. Plus, having that extra support when energy is limited makes everything more manageable.

    Creative Productivity

    I also added more designs to my RedBubble store today – seven new pieces that speak to the chronic illness experience. Each design feels like putting a piece of my heart out into the world, hoping it reaches someone who needs to see that particular message at just the right moment.

    Creating these graphics has become such a therapeutic outlet. Taking the struggles, the insights, and the hope that come from living with chronic conditions and turning them into something beautiful that might help others feel less alone – it’s incredibly fulfilling work.

    The Power of Good Weather Days

    It’s amazing how much the weather affects everything when you live with chronic illness. Today’s sunshine didn’t just brighten the sky, it seemed to ease some of the usual fatigue and pain. Whether it’s the vitamin D, the improved mood, or just the psychological boost of seeing blue skies, good weather days often translate to better symptom days.

    I’m learning to really appreciate and maximize these brighter days, both literally and figuratively. When the sun shines and your body cooperates, even a little bit, it’s worth celebrating.

    Finding Balance in the Good Days

    The key is enjoying days like today without overdoing it. It’s tempting when you feel good to try to catch up on everything you couldn’t do during the harder days. But I’m getting better at pacing myself and finding that sweet spot of productivity without pushing into tomorrow’s energy reserves.

    Today felt sustainable – accomplished but not overwhelming, productive but not exhausting. That’s exactly the kind of balance I’m working toward.

    Here’s hoping for more sunshine tomorrow, both outside and within. 💜

    Good days are gifts to be savored, not rushed through. Sometimes the best thing you can do is simply appreciate them as they come.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Finding Comfort in Routine Amid Chronic Illness

    Finding Comfort in Routine Amid Chronic Illness

    May 28, 2025

    Today was much like yesterday – a pattern that’s becoming familiar and, honestly, kind of comforting. Sometimes when you’re managing chronic illness, finding a sustainable routine is actually a victory in itself.

    The Daily Rhythm

    Once again, I split my energy between job applications and working on new RedBubble designs. There’s something to be said for having a routine that works within your limitations. No dramatic ups and downs, no overexertion followed by crashes – just steady, manageable progress on the things that matter.

    Job hunting continues to be its own unique challenge when you’re balancing chronic conditions. Each application feels like a small act of hope and determination.

    Creative Energy

    The RedBubble design work continues to be such a positive outlet. Creating graphics that speak to the chronic illness experience feels meaningful in a way that’s hard to describe. Every new design is a chance to put something beautiful and validating into the world.

    There’s already been such encouraging engagement – favorites coming in quickly after uploads, and knowing that these designs are resonating with people who understand the journey.

    Small Contributions Matter

    I helped my husband with dinner tonight – well, I made the cheesy garlic bread that went with it. It might seem like a small thing, but when you’re managing limited energy, being able to contribute to the household in any way feels good.

    Sometimes the wins aren’t dramatic. Sometimes they’re just consistently showing up within your means, adding what you can, and finding satisfaction in the small contributions.

    Finding Balance in Routine

    There’s something to be said for days that look similar when you’re living with chronic illness. Not every day needs to be an adventure or a major accomplishment. Some days, the victory is simply maintaining a rhythm that works for your body and your goals.

    Consistency might not be glamorous, but it’s sustainable. And sustainable is exactly what I need right now.

    Here’s to finding comfort in routine and progress in small, steady steps. 💜

    Sometimes the most productive thing you can do is find a rhythm that actually works for your body and energy levels.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Finding Productivity on Rainy Days with Chronic Illness

    Finding Productivity on Rainy Days with Chronic Illness

    May 27, 2025

    Today is another cool, gray day here in Ohio with periods of rain all day long… ugh. There’s something about these dreary, overcast days that just seems to settle into your bones when you’re already dealing with chronic pain and fatigue.

    But while I didn’t accomplish much physically today, I decided to channel my energy in other directions and actually made up for it in productivity in different ways.

    Job Application Marathon

    I spent a good chunk of the day filling out job applications. And by “a good chunk,” I mean what felt like an endless stream of online forms, cover letters, and that soul-crushing question: “Can you perform the essential functions of this job with or without accommodation?”

    Job hunting with chronic illness is its own special kind of challenge. You’re trying to present yourself as capable and enthusiastic while also being realistic about your limitations. It’s a delicate balance between honesty and hope.

    Creative Energy Outlet

    After all that job application work, I needed something more inspiring to focus on. So I decided to add some new designs to my RedBubble store today. There’s something therapeutic about creating graphics that speak to the chronic illness experience. Turning our struggles into something beautiful and meaningful.

    You should definitely stop by and check out the new designs I added! Each one comes from a place of understanding what it’s like to navigate this journey, and I hope they resonate with others walking similar paths.

    Here’s a few of the designs that I created earlier today.

    Different Kinds of Productivity

    Today reminded me that productivity doesn’t always have to look like checking off a traditional to-do list. Sometimes it’s about:

    • Taking care of necessary but draining tasks (job applications)
    • Nurturing your creative side (new designs)
    • Building something meaningful for your community (RedBubble store)
    • Working within your energy levels instead of fighting against them

    Weather and Chronic Illness

    These rainy, cool days always seem to affect how I feel physically. The barometric pressure changes, the lack of sunshine, and the general dreariness all compound the usual fatigue and pain. But I’m learning to work with these limitations rather than against them.

    Indoor productivity days have their own value. Sometimes the weather forces us to slow down and focus on the things we can control from the comfort of our homes.

    Here’s to making the most of rainy days and finding productivity in unexpected places. Tomorrow’s forecast looks a bit brighter, literally and figuratively.

    Productivity looks different when you’re managing chronic illness, and that’s perfectly okay.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Navigating Life with Chronic Illness: A Journey of Acceptance

    Navigating Life with Chronic Illness: A Journey of Acceptance

    May 26, 2025 – Evening

    I saved up all my energy today to shower this afternoon, giving me some time for those deep thoughts that only seem to come when you’re standing under warm water. Today’s shower thoughts were heavy ones. I’m actively saying goodbye to the life I used to have and trying to embrace and be okay with the life I have now.

    But honestly? It’s hard. Really, really hard.

    The Life I Used To Live

    I used to be able to work 12-hour days and still have energy left over to grocery shop, clean the house, and do laundry. All in the same day. I was a productivity machine, checking things off my to-do list like it was a competitive sport.

    My days look so completely different now. My energy level lets me do one main event per day, and sometimes even that feels like I’m pushing it. Today’s main event was a shower. That’s it. And I had to plan for it and rest up beforehand.

    I don’t even know the person that I have become.

    The Small Losses That Add Up

    I used to have long hair, and I absolutely loved it. I don’t like having short hair. Honestly, I think it looks terrible on me. But I cut it recently because I just don’t have the energy to deal with having long hair anymore. The washing, the drying, the styling, it became this insurmountable task that would wipe me out for hours.

    I have moments when I look around my house and desperately want to clean and organize, and put things away. The desire is there, the motivation is there. But then reality hits. I don’t have the energy to just get up and do that anymore. The spirit is willing, but the body has other plans.

    Living Within New Limits

    Everything requires planning now. Every single thing. I have to strategically think about my limited energy reserves and high pain levels before making any decision. Should I shower today or save my energy for that phone call I need to make? Can I handle a trip to the store, or do I need to ask someone else to pick up what I need, or have it delivered?

    It’s like living life with a constantly dying phone battery, except you can’t just plug yourself into a wall charger and be back to 100% in an hour.

    The Path Less Understood

    This journey of chronic illness is one that’s difficult to explain to people who haven’t walked it themselves. It’s grieving your old self while trying to build a relationship with your new reality. It’s finding ways to feel productive and valuable when your definition of accomplishment has completely changed.

    Some days, taking a shower IS the accomplishment. Some days, making it through without crying is a victory. Some days, finding a moment of gratitude despite everything is the biggest win of all.

    A Message for the Healthy World

    So if you’re someone who knows someone with a chronic illness, please give them a hug the next time you see them. We’re walking a path that’s completely different from everyone else’s, and it’s an extremely difficult one.

    We’re not the same people we used to be, and we’re still figuring out who we’re becoming. That takes tremendous courage, even when it doesn’t look like much from the outside.

    Sometimes the bravest thing we do is simply keep going, one limited-energy day at a time.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Finding Comfort: Coping with Chronic Pain and Flare Days

    Finding Comfort: Coping with Chronic Pain and Flare Days

    May 25, 2025

    Today was a necessary rest day after overdoing it yesterday. I knew I had pushed too hard, and my body made sure to remind me of that fact. So today was all about damage control. I did everything I could to manage the flare-up before it got any worse.

    My daughter and I spent the entire day curled up watching Netflix together. Sometimes the best medicine is just giving yourself permission to do absolutely nothing productive except heal and spend time with the people you love most.

    Despite feeling rough, I did manage to get some posts scheduled for Chronically Hustling from bed (thank goodness for laptops and the ability to work horizontally!). I also completely revamped my Patreon – you should definitely head over and check out what I’ve put together. Even on flare days, sometimes those little bursts of creative energy surprise you.

    My Flare Day Dream Team

    Today my lifelines were:

    • My daughter (who also happens to be my best friend) – nothing beats quality time with your favorite person
    • My puppies – because cuddles from furry friends always help more than any medicine
    • My husband – who continues to be amazing by handling almost all the cooking (seriously, what would I do without him?)
    • My trusty neck massager – during flare-ups, my worst pain always settles in my neck and shoulders, and this device is worth its weight in gold

    The Reality of Chronic Illness Management

    This is what living with chronic conditions actually looks like. The constant balance between pushing yourself when you feel good and paying for it later. Yesterday felt manageable, so I did more. Today, my body is asking for that energy back with interest.

    But here’s what I’ve learned: rest days aren’t failures. They’re part of the management strategy. They’re investing in tomorrow by taking care of today.

    Sometimes the most productive thing you can do is recognize when your body needs you to stop and listen. Today was one of those days. I’m grateful I had the support system and tools to make it through reasonably comfortably.

    Here’s to hoping tomorrow brings a little more energy and a little less pain. For now, I’m signing off from my cozy Netflix nest.

    Living with chronic illness means some days are for doing, and some days are for healing. Both are equally important.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Small Victories and Simple Pleasures

    Small Victories and Simple Pleasures

    May 24, 2025

    Today was one of the better days I’ve had lately. The sun was shining and it was warmer outside. Something about good weather always lifts my spirits, even when my body is struggling.

    I managed to go grocery shopping with my husband, which felt like a small victory. By the time we got home, I was completely exhausted, but I wasn’t ready to call it a day yet. I decided to make a lemon pound cake (thank goodness for cake mixes on low-energy days!) and enlisted my daughter’s help to prep fresh strawberries. Taking off the tops, coring them, cutting them up, and sprinkling them with sugar before putting them in the fridge.

    It’s such a simple thing. There’s something satisfying about preparing a sweet treat together, even when it’s just basic tasks. These strawberries and cake will be our dessert tonight. Sometimes that’s exactly what a good day calls for.

    Now it’s close to dinner time, and I’m completely wiped out. I’m ready for bed even though the day is barely ending. Here’s hoping for a good night’s sleep tonight. 🤞

    Sometimes the best days aren’t about doing everything on your list. They’re about doing what you can. Enjoying simple moments and being grateful for the energy you had when you had it.

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • Today’s Lesson in Patience (and Plumbing)

    Today’s Lesson in Patience (and Plumbing)

    May 22, 2025

    Most of my day revolved around waiting for a plumber. Because nothing tests your Zen like a 4-hour window and a late 5 pm arrival. 😅

    Silver linings?

    1. Unexpected sleep-in thanks to feeling under the weather (thanks, body, for the forced pause).
    2. A masterclass in ‘good enough’ vs. ‘done right’—turns out the previous ‘fix’ was a ticking time bomb. Shoutout to the pro who took the time to rebuild it properly.
    3. Gratitude for modern conveniences—because suddenly, a functioning sink feels like a luxury.

    Moral of the story: Sometimes the wait reveals what was already broken. And yes, I’m now side-eyeing every DIY hack I’ve ever bookmarked. 🛠️

    Ever had a ‘waiting game’ day that taught you something unexpected?

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜

  • From Leaks to Little Wins

    From Leaks to Little Wins

    May 21, 2025

    Unexpected Plumbing Disaster (& How I Handled It)
    Today got away from me. Life decided to throw a curveball. Everything was going fine until I went downstairs to do laundry. That’s when I discovered water leaking into the basement from the kitchen sink. 😬

    Quick Fix: How I Scheduled an Emergency Plumber

    Thankfully, I managed to book a last-minute appointment with Eco Plumbers for tomorrow. Pro tip for plumbing emergencies: Call early in the day for faster service! In a house with four people, dishes pile up quick (and a broken sink is a nightmare). Fingers crossed they can fix it without too much hassle.

    Side note: Eco Plumbers had same-day availability, which is a lifesaver for busy families.

    Chronic Pain & Weather: Why Rain Makes Everything Worse

    Between the leak and the cool, rainy weather, I’ve been feeling drained and in extra pain. Fun fact (or not-so-fun): Studies show changes in barometric pressure can worsen joint pain and fatigue, and my body is proof. When it’s gray and damp, I feel it in my muscles, energy levels, and mood. Counting down the days until sunny spring weather arrives so I can throw the windows open! 🌤️

    Better days are coming. I can feel it. ☀️

    The dogs are snoring. I’m signing off. See you tomorrow. 💜